I have been told over and over again that I am a feisty, resilient person. I have been asked about where I get my boundless energy, why I am thoughtful or grateful, and how I sustain my limitless fortitude.
But like, Robin Williams who recently decided to leave this world; I understand the depths of depression and anxiety. Many people endure with great stamina and courage struggles no one knows about. Often we are silent; why would anyone want to know about our feelings, our doubts, and our insecurities? Most people want to escape, to laugh, to remove themselves from disturbing thoughts and painful memories.
Perhaps that is why people like Robin Williams and me enjoy seeing people laugh, being an entertainer, and creating a picture of ourselves quite different on the exterior than what is happening internally. It may be how we get through our day--outwardly joyful, confident, and buoyant.
I used to be so quiet about sharing that I suffer from depression. I felt it stigmatized me; but recently I began to tell others about what is happening. I began to share my deepest, saddest thoughts, and my most vivid reflections of my life, its meaning and purpose. I went public. And it felt right because I found I am not alone.
I have been strong enough far too long; perhaps you too have been strong too long. It is time to come together and say “it’s OK. You can share. I will listen. I understand. I have been there.” You can offer encouragement so you and others like me will bounce back, in time. A tidbit of advice: surround yourself with supportive people. Remember you are not alone. When you feel the whole world around you collapsing, remember you can build yourself up—one day at a time—find the time to renew, recharge, and not quit. There is a purpose here. I know that. Look for your purpose.